One can trick themselves into thinking the world is peaceful, up here. Clear air and quiet. Watching the ocean and the sky, almost as much to note their colours as he might any suspicious shapes or lights. He's read some of the available reporting, listened to the crystal network which has, for this rare instance, remained free of foolishness, has some idea of what to be concerned about.
But Marcus would be lying if he said that his coming here wasn't significantly for the sake of feeling familiar flagstone underfoot, the more restless air, the assuring weight of his staff at his shoulder. The scent of sea water and clean smoke rather than laundry soap and his own sweat.
It's dark. A light rain has started, distributing damp dark patches about the shoulders and back of his grey jacket. A minute of standing in it, and then he is relieved of duty.
And so he's still a little damp once he gets to the landing on the floor of the division head apartments. Neatly, sensibly dressed, hair bound tidily and face shaved as early as that afternoon, and if the occurrences of the last few days have left an imprint of him, the worst of it is divested when he affords himself a minute to catch his breath at the top of the stairs and ignore the restlessness that demands he immediately cross to Flint's door.
Knocks, once there. He'd spied a cracked door with lantern light at the other corner of the floor, but there seems little point in being so quiet that Flint might miss it.
No answer comes for a long interval. It's the sort of delay which naturally breeds doubt—the occupant is otherwise engaged, he is elsewhere, something. And then some flicker of light sending a shadow creeping out from under the door. The rasp of a bolt.
When the door is pried open, the office is dark behind and about Flint. The light from the palm lamp cuts harsh shadows out of his features, and illuminates a damp gleam on his nearest cheek. There is a washing towel across his shoulder. A certain faintly irregular quality to the shape of his face which suggests—
He is partly through shaving, and has thrown clothes and boots back on with the intention of answering something pressing. Finding Marcus on the landing punctures him—tension begin to dump back out of the lines of his bearing, only to be shoveled roughly back into place. Marcus was on the wall. Marcus has been all but confined to his sick bed these last days, divided from his duties; it is entirely possible that there is work to be done.
"I'd heard you were upright."
Flint raises the edge of the cloth, scraping it roughly across his damp cheek. Takes a half step back to permit passage.
Gossip, such as it is. (He has thought, in the more alert idle hours, of which there have been plenty today, if the healer who'd attended him is the type to talk. If she'd flown in with anyone who is. He doesn't know, and he doesn't remember. He'd wondered if it would change anything. What that change would be.) Marcus steps into the room, his hand going out to press the door closed.
He has been idle. Flint has not. Intellectually an easy conclusion to reach, but he can see it in the man's bearing, his expression.
His hand goes out. The flat of his fingers laying high on Flint's neck, thumb brushing over that shaved line. As much a signal that he is not here to report some news as anything else, and what that 'anything else' might be is not easily read in his own expression. Alert, curious, prying, rather than open.
"That follows." He doesn't tilt his head away from the brush of Marcus' thumb, though he does finish wiping his chin. "There's enough happening. I'd be surprised if anyone has any of their stories straight."
He doesn't know that he does. Too many moving pieces, no moment long enough in which to stop and arrange them for observation.
But if Marcus isn't here to make a report, then fuck standing here in the darkened office portion of these rooms. Nevermind the glance that flicka quick up the line of Marcus' arm and to his face, says nothing at all save that an assessment has been made. Then Flint does draw away, boot heels clunking heavily across the floor as he makes his way back to the lit slice cut into the wall by the half open door leading into the room beyond this one.
"Bolt the door," he says. "There's a bottle in here if you need a drink."
He'd minded it some, that glance, curious about everything, including whatever inscrutable thoughts trail along the path of Flint's eyeline, the conclusions made. Which is in part why he says, "Aye," on the subject of whether he needs a drink, following along behind. Tracking the subtle shift in scent and temperature between one room and the other in contrast to the more jarring one of light and lack.
Shrugs out of his jacket as he crosses the threshold, folding it over with more care than the way he deposits it over the nearest and likeliest surface. Then, a look for this promised bottle and the necessary vessel.
"I wish I'd've been of any use," as he does so, more conversational than confessional, but not a lie either.
The room is warm thanks to a burning brazier which affordable the room most of its light and, if the nearby evidence is any indication, had heated the water currently filling Flint's basin. The bottle in question Flint catches up from the bedside table. With it comes a pewter cup which he first drains the dregs from before passing both to Marcus. Cheap rum by the smell of it, cloying in its sweetness.
"Luck of the draw," is not a consolation. It's just a fact. Marcus is a gambler. He knows how these things work.
With the assumption that Marcus will either make himself comfortable or he won't, Flint turns back toward the pedestal stand. He draws the cloth from his shoulder. Only for a fine, thread thin instant does he hesitate. Decides, bluntly, that he feels stupid with a half shaved face and that beats out the prickling sensation that comes from the reality of having Marcus in the room while he goes about this very dull business.
So: razor. Wet boar's brush through dry soap. Drawing loose his shirt's neck again. Annoying, actually, to start the whole process over.
"You should be grateful your brains are still between your ears."
The drink he pours for himself is on the generous side of a solitary helping. Once that's done, the bottle stoppered and set down, Marcus makes an assessment of the likeliest place to to sit, and chooses the end of the bed, boots still on the floor. He drinks a modest taste, and then a longer pull as if in answer to thing Flint says.
"I am," quiet, but he needn't be loud to be heard. Marks Flint arranging himself for a task normally conducted in some privacy. That Marcus lowers his focus to where he idles his hands, tracing the lip of the pewter cup with the edge of his thumbnail, is not really in respect of that. Listens, attuned to the sounds of brush bristles, water, the scrape of a razor over skin when it comes.
Attuned, also, to some inner clench of feeling, before he adds, "And that I was found when I was."
There is a rhythm to this. It slows a fraction here, razor's edge hovering over tender flesh for a split second before his hand continues its motion. The beat in which Flint doesn't respond then is so he can finish with this particular stretch of his face without talking and cutting himself. It is not a hesitation.
When the razor comes away and is rinsed in the basin, he says, "You're welcome."
He has spent the last days steeling himself against the guilt determined to worm it's way in. He should have looked sooner, it says, but that is ridiculous. He is not apologizing for putting Kirkwall over what had reasonably been the recovery of Marcus' corpse.
(Nevermind that an apology isn't what Marcus is asking for; he's almost certain.)
A soft scrape of honed metal against the basin's lip. Again, that gentle rasp of the razor on skin.
He'd been turning one fragment of memory over like a coin between his fingers, something before all of this. I want you to come find me, Flint had said, voice close to Marcus' ear even though he'd been several days ride away. Spoken in between directives on how Marcus might or might not touch himself, in the midst of the absurdity of finding a way to fuck while not even in the same room, meant to help bring him closer to that edge his own hand was working him towards.
It had been a pleasantly restless few days after, both keen to return to make Flint make good on his promise to him as well as comfortable in the knowledge that Flint would be anticipating his arrival. I'll put my hands on you then.
Marcus looks back up from his cup. A fragment of mirror offers him some view of Flint's face, but he settles his focus on the back of his head. Loose collar, slope of light. The taste of rum in his mouth, which he swallows around again before he says, "And that it was you," without dropping his focus.
Poor luck, he thinks. Had it been the first person he'd sent looking to do it, they'd have peeled Marcus off the Kirkwall pavement hours earlier. Saved them all some trouble, to say nothing of the low knot he'd carried around in his own belly during that interval. A knot that has not, despite having every reason to, particularly eased in the hours since finding Marcus miraculously not quite a corpse. Flint has chalked it up to the demands of the days. The lack of sleep. To the ache that had developed in his forearm and shoulder from being wrenched around on Monster's back. But it cinches a little tighter here in answer to that sentiment. So maybe not.
The razor slips off the edge of his cheek with the faintest ringing of the metal. He rinses it briskly, aware of a kind of self-consciousness prickling at the back of his neck. He is not at his best.
(It is possible that on hearing Marcus was no longer bound to a sick bed, that he'd some thought to sleep and a bath and a shave—a sort of theater where being in some sense presentable makes up for a number of sins; an impulse long made habitual by years pretending that a uniform and polished boots offsets the stink of being aship for months on end.)
"Your griffon did most of the work," he says, adjusting the mirror. If there is a flash of Marcus the reflection, then it's brief before Flint leans in to do the finicky work of tidying various edges. "But it was"—what?—"a relief to find you in one piece."
A glance cast back through the mirror's reflection. A slanting of the brow which says, More or less.
It would be sympathetic, if Marcus thought about it. Not so far apart from his own desire to present himself on his own two feet rather than groggily miserable on unwashed bedding, of having already made some effort to slot himself back into rotation, one guard shift under his belt. He'd remembered marking the amount of grey- and rust-stained water run off when he'd gotten around to washing up, managing not to dwell too much on what a horror he must have looked two basins ago. A little, though.
But he doesn't think about it. Instead, he watches what he can see of rinsing, of scraping the razor clean, the sound of metal against ceramic, sharp edges against skin, and the aroma of soap, and finds that he likes it.
Does catch that glance in the mirror, the corner of his mouth turning up.
"Aye, well," Marcus says, knowing something like the emotional equivalent of claws retracting from that glance alone. Their having extended to begin with less out of a prey drive and more out of the desire to give something a good and proper kneading. He adds, "My wardrobe begs to differ."
A low rumbled hum, something along the lines of Fair enough rendered wordless in deference to not taking a nick from the corner of his mouth, answers that. But after, dissatisfied with the result and straightening from it anyway, Flint gives the razor a rough rinse and adds, "Good excuse for a new one."
Captain Rowntree may not be the Gallows' most ostentatious clothes horse, but that hardly disqualifies him from the race in general.
The razor sniks closed into its case. A perfunctory rinsing away of soap, a drying of cheeks, and a squinting examination of the results follows. Some woody beard oil follows, a surreptitious scratching of fingernails against irritated cheeks. Fine, seems to be the assessment. In this light, at least.
Marcus answers with his own rumbled hum of sound. True.
He drinks as Flint finishes, down to half a sip left once an assessment has been made. A stiff helping of rum does its work quickly after a few days of picky eating and idleness, a pleasant warmth beneath the skin. Marcus tosses back the rest and then stands, moving that short distance where he'd set the bottle down.
"Here," he says as he pours a helping. If he'd had any foresight beyond impulse, he might have ferreted out a bottle of something from somewhere on his way up the stairs. Next time, perhaps. For now, he can offer the man his own liquor. "Have a drink with me."
He pulls the cloth from his shoulder, depositing it on the pedestal stand as he turns to accept the cup. His cheek stings a little from the scrape of the razor and the oil that has followed, and it is habit to run his fingertips across the smooth skin left behind or to tug absently at the edges of his beard as if to be certain they are where they should be.
A low murmur of thanks for the cup instead of some sharper, funnier thing. This doesn't count if you're trying for a do over for a shit night at a tap house, he could say and doesn't.
He knows what the rum tastes like. There is no need to sip carefully at it.
"How are you feeling?" is a better thing to say anyway.
Flint drinks, and Marcus gives his shaving job a brief zigzagging assessment with a flick of eyeline. It all looks neat, at least in this light.
"Better," he says, reinstating eye contact. "Good," is his revision, a tipping down of his chin meant to impress upon the other man the truth of this. He is better, good. Alive, and present. Nothing that need recall any past pain, nothing that requires distance. "Sober," is then added, punctuated with a tip of the bottle to top up Flint's last sip of rum. He shifts aside to set the bottle down without again stoppering it.
Ready to accept back the cup. Maybe there is something to this in the spirit of a do over, or maybe some quiet and semi-serious celebration in a shared drink, but he hadn't really had much of a plan for what happens after Flint opens his door to him. And so Marcus adds, "Foolish.
He finds his ear pricked for the answer, ready to gauge whatever Marcus says more carefully than he might have guessed even as he'd been the one asking. Better is good. Good is better. Sober has him nipping a last taste from the cup, eye tracking the way Marcus moves as he sets the bottle aside, and foolish—
The huff of an exhale across the lip of the cup is rum warm and related to a laugh. Pleased with the unexpectedly candid quality of the thing. So in exchange, he trades Marcus the cup and offers, "Tired," with it.
It has a confessional quality, a glint of amusement snagged in at the margins. He's not meant to say that part out loud, it suggests. It would be bad for morale.
It's a sympathetic hum of sound, shaped by the interior of the cup as Marcus draws another deep sip of cheap rum. Some abstract thrum of guilt passes through him, as if maybe he'd have been able to alleviate enough of the work that Flint would have a different answer, if only he'd been ———, but it comes and it goes, dismissed.
'Foolish', he'd said, and what's the use of feeling that way without acting on it? He reaches out and collects Flint's hand, palm against palm and fingers resting on the inner of his wrist. Coaxing, encouraging Flint nearer rather than stepping into his space.
It's warm, Marcus' palm and the lay of his fingers there at the heel of his hand and across the sinews and bones in his wrist. It prompts an automatic shifting of thumb and fingers, closing in. A rough scuff of a calloused finger pad along the underside of Marcus' wrist. He'd been cold the last time he'd touched him, coated in a fine layer of ash and grit and with all his powers drained free of him. This evidence of Better and Good is gathered into Flint's own fingers. Or, credit where it's due, he is successfully coaxed. Either way, he shifts in.
The hand that follows and finds its way to Marcus' shoulder is warm too, thumb encroaching up past the line of his collar to set at the underside of his jaw before the whole hand moves after it.
If he is stepping close, then his hand is moving to the back of Marcus' neck. He is drawing him closer, as if expanding to fit the space, and kissing him—not particularly sweetly, but gentle and unhurried over the warm gusting of a shared breath and the prickling of cheap dark liquor on Marcus' mouth. A less urgent version of the thing he'd pressed to Marcus' lips while they'd tasted of coppery blood. That's fine, it says. Stay then.
His hand circles Flint's wrist as he is kissed, tightening his hold as he tips his head that small fraction down to receive the gesture. A self-satisfied (or simply satisfied) breath moves through him, released gently. For the kiss, or the way it answers his not-quite-a-question, for the warmth of Flint's hand
which Marcus can feel better, now, in contrast to that other night where the probing of fingers or blunt warmth of palm that had felt like it was touching him a little through layers of wool. No, he can feel calluses and smooth skin, the discreet points of contact of individual fingers, the gentle pressure that encourages him in up at the back of his neck.
Marcus draws an arm around Flint in a slow squeeze of an embrace, as if relishing something. The pewter cup stays clasped between fingers, neglected. Kisses back, eager to initiate that secondary press of contact.
It doesn't particularly help that knot formed in his belly. Rather, the shape of Marcus' arm cinches it tighter and nearer and pulls it higher under the ribs where it might ache like tender bruise does. But this is hardly the first instance of warming to some pressure Marcus has applied. It only stings if his bristles. It's only a matter of letting himself want it.
Tonight, he does. For all the grit under his fingernails and the imperfect shave, it's good that Marcus is here in this room with the strength in his arm to draw him in. It is less like an indulgence, and hews closer to some kind of legitimate gratitude. Soothes over the thing in Flint most prone to balking. Apparently, he's going to be upset if Marcus Rowntree dies in some fiery standoff with Venatori. If that's true, then it seems stupid to pretend it won't just for the sake of pretending.
It's a slow, warm kiss in that narrowed space. Methodical, like checking that all the pins and buckles of a thing have been done up. A soft parting of lips, a gentle probing of tongue. No teeth at all and the heavy press of fingers cuffed at the nape of Marcus' neck. And when it breaks, as kisses are wont to do, it's with a low huff of breath. A grumbled rum tinged, "Ouch," that is at least partially overplayed as he twists his wrist to loosen the grip Marcus has on it. But he doesn't shift back from under the rasping of Marcus' coat sleeve, and the shape of Flint's other hand remains settled.
That hand loosens with a quiet grunt of sound out of Marcus, a reflexive apology that doesn't see him ease back or anything. Just settles his grasp a little looser, higher up near Flint's elbow, which makes for a good loose handhold anyway when he goes to insist a second kiss on the man's mouth.
Still gentle, still slow and warm. An enjoyment in the physical act of it as much as it conveys something. Tasting, feeling, the recent trace of alcohol and the texture bristle still damp and smoothed over from the towel. The last of that kiss brushes against the man's lip, which comes with it that first touch of teeth, a brief nip before the kiss breaks.
But doesn't stray far. Marcus' mouth brushes low on Flint's jaw and then the internal structures of the exchange collapse just a little, just enough for his chin to find a resting place on the other man's shoulder and the arm looped around him to anchor firmly, holding him there and against him.
That hand sliding to his elbow has made it easier too to catch his fingers in the stiff fabric of Marcus' coat, to secure a grip there at his side. Not so high as to actually press through to the pinched scar that he knows lurks across the ribs, but not so far so far removed as to be entirely divested from the sentiment of the thing. Here is the flat of his hand pressed tight to Marcus' side again and the shape of the man's breathing moving under it. And closer: across his neck and under the line of his arm where his hand is still fit to Marcus' nape. It is easy in that instinctive way to turn his face and press a little into the crook of Marcus' neck and shoulder where he smells like the night air the comes across the wall and the tang of tobacco smoke living thick in the fabric of his outer layers.
The sound of his own breathing seems loud in the close knit of this, rasping thick in the narrow space. He lingers there anyway for a few moments in that tight loop of the man's arm; and when he does draw back, it barely qualifies—the line of his body pressed flush, and only Flint's shoulders shifting so he might insinuate enough space into the equation in which to actually meet Marcus' eye.
"Sleep here," has a steady, expectant quality. Not really a question. Barely a request.
It's long enough. Not long enough. Marcus holds him and is held and regards with a kind of remote observation that sense of something burning brighter and brighter, high in his chest, higher. Enough to prickle behind his eyes but only that, the rest of him stone without smothering. He feels Flint move and takes a long breath in, relaxing his grasp just enough to answer that look.
He nods. The affirmative sound, more breath than words, is lost a little in the kiss he brush across Flint's mouth. A reason to stay there a moment longer, pressed in tightly, pairs of boots in close order together on floorboards too sturdy to creak beneath the shifts of weight of two rather than one.
It also makes for a compelling reason to disentangle, once that last kiss breaks.
Barely. But Marcus steps back, disengaging in parts—the leaning into, then his arm sliding back, then finally the hand at Flint's elbow—before lifting the cup to polish off the rum inside. His other hand travels to the edge of his coat to rid himself of less comfortable layers.
As if the possibility were somehow in doubt, though he knows it wasn't, something warms and aches behind the ribs and in the belly at that agreement. Comes prickling up under the shape of that last kiss and the close press of bodies. Teeters between satisfied and a hooked and scraping wanting sensation that only gleams sharper as they disentangle, his hand slipping from Marcus' neck. From his side.
There is a brief impulse when they come fully apart to reverse trajectory and insinuate a hand somewhere close on Marcus' person. Instead, he takes the emptied cup from him and draws back, pulse thick and heavy in his throat.
There is an order to this: the setting aside of the cup, stripping out of the boots he'd removed once already this evening, packing away the things left near the basin with the kind of thoughtless tidiness that speaks of long habit impressed by necessity. There is a cover for the brazier. Fitting it throws the room into the shadow of lamplight.
Undressing in this room, or shared rooms, usually sees a belt over there, a shirt slipped off the end of the bed, boots nudged somewhere unseen for later discovery. Not always, but frequent enough that it feels conscious, finding a place to drape his coat, sitting to unlace and unbuckle his boots and put them aside so that he won't trip over them at a later time.
The room is thrown into dimmer light and shadow once Marcus is standing again, tugging loose the tails of his shirt from his waistband. His skin prickles over, newly alcohol-warm when the air is pleasantly cool, gathering the fabric and tugging it up over his head, his shoulders. Just like the rest of him, healing magic and recovery has done its work—no new scars to boast, this time.
The shirt is tossed lightly over where his coat was put aside. Loosens his belt to start that too, though a sideways glance marks Flint's progress.
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But Marcus would be lying if he said that his coming here wasn't significantly for the sake of feeling familiar flagstone underfoot, the more restless air, the assuring weight of his staff at his shoulder. The scent of sea water and clean smoke rather than laundry soap and his own sweat.
It's dark. A light rain has started, distributing damp dark patches about the shoulders and back of his grey jacket. A minute of standing in it, and then he is relieved of duty.
And so he's still a little damp once he gets to the landing on the floor of the division head apartments. Neatly, sensibly dressed, hair bound tidily and face shaved as early as that afternoon, and if the occurrences of the last few days have left an imprint of him, the worst of it is divested when he affords himself a minute to catch his breath at the top of the stairs and ignore the restlessness that demands he immediately cross to Flint's door.
Knocks, once there. He'd spied a cracked door with lantern light at the other corner of the floor, but there seems little point in being so quiet that Flint might miss it.
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When the door is pried open, the office is dark behind and about Flint. The light from the palm lamp cuts harsh shadows out of his features, and illuminates a damp gleam on his nearest cheek. There is a washing towel across his shoulder. A certain faintly irregular quality to the shape of his face which suggests—
He is partly through shaving, and has thrown clothes and boots back on with the intention of answering something pressing. Finding Marcus on the landing punctures him—tension begin to dump back out of the lines of his bearing, only to be shoveled roughly back into place. Marcus was on the wall. Marcus has been all but confined to his sick bed these last days, divided from his duties; it is entirely possible that there is work to be done.
"I'd heard you were upright."
Flint raises the edge of the cloth, scraping it roughly across his damp cheek. Takes a half step back to permit passage.
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Gossip, such as it is. (He has thought, in the more alert idle hours, of which there have been plenty today, if the healer who'd attended him is the type to talk. If she'd flown in with anyone who is. He doesn't know, and he doesn't remember. He'd wondered if it would change anything. What that change would be.) Marcus steps into the room, his hand going out to press the door closed.
He has been idle. Flint has not. Intellectually an easy conclusion to reach, but he can see it in the man's bearing, his expression.
His hand goes out. The flat of his fingers laying high on Flint's neck, thumb brushing over that shaved line. As much a signal that he is not here to report some news as anything else, and what that 'anything else' might be is not easily read in his own expression. Alert, curious, prying, rather than open.
"I haven't heard anything," he adds.
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He doesn't know that he does. Too many moving pieces, no moment long enough in which to stop and arrange them for observation.
But if Marcus isn't here to make a report, then fuck standing here in the darkened office portion of these rooms. Nevermind the glance that flicka quick up the line of Marcus' arm and to his face, says nothing at all save that an assessment has been made. Then Flint does draw away, boot heels clunking heavily across the floor as he makes his way back to the lit slice cut into the wall by the half open door leading into the room beyond this one.
"Bolt the door," he says. "There's a bottle in here if you need a drink."
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He'd minded it some, that glance, curious about everything, including whatever inscrutable thoughts trail along the path of Flint's eyeline, the conclusions made. Which is in part why he says, "Aye," on the subject of whether he needs a drink, following along behind. Tracking the subtle shift in scent and temperature between one room and the other in contrast to the more jarring one of light and lack.
Shrugs out of his jacket as he crosses the threshold, folding it over with more care than the way he deposits it over the nearest and likeliest surface. Then, a look for this promised bottle and the necessary vessel.
"I wish I'd've been of any use," as he does so, more conversational than confessional, but not a lie either.
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"Luck of the draw," is not a consolation. It's just a fact. Marcus is a gambler. He knows how these things work.
With the assumption that Marcus will either make himself comfortable or he won't, Flint turns back toward the pedestal stand. He draws the cloth from his shoulder. Only for a fine, thread thin instant does he hesitate. Decides, bluntly, that he feels stupid with a half shaved face and that beats out the prickling sensation that comes from the reality of having Marcus in the room while he goes about this very dull business.
So: razor. Wet boar's brush through dry soap. Drawing loose his shirt's neck again. Annoying, actually, to start the whole process over.
"You should be grateful your brains are still between your ears."
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"I am," quiet, but he needn't be loud to be heard. Marks Flint arranging himself for a task normally conducted in some privacy. That Marcus lowers his focus to where he idles his hands, tracing the lip of the pewter cup with the edge of his thumbnail, is not really in respect of that. Listens, attuned to the sounds of brush bristles, water, the scrape of a razor over skin when it comes.
Attuned, also, to some inner clench of feeling, before he adds, "And that I was found when I was."
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When the razor comes away and is rinsed in the basin, he says, "You're welcome."
He has spent the last days steeling himself against the guilt determined to worm it's way in. He should have looked sooner, it says, but that is ridiculous. He is not apologizing for putting Kirkwall over what had reasonably been the recovery of Marcus' corpse.
(Nevermind that an apology isn't what Marcus is asking for; he's almost certain.)
A soft scrape of honed metal against the basin's lip. Again, that gentle rasp of the razor on skin.
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It had been a pleasantly restless few days after, both keen to return to make Flint make good on his promise to him as well as comfortable in the knowledge that Flint would be anticipating his arrival. I'll put my hands on you then.
Marcus looks back up from his cup. A fragment of mirror offers him some view of Flint's face, but he settles his focus on the back of his head. Loose collar, slope of light. The taste of rum in his mouth, which he swallows around again before he says, "And that it was you," without dropping his focus.
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The razor slips off the edge of his cheek with the faintest ringing of the metal. He rinses it briskly, aware of a kind of self-consciousness prickling at the back of his neck. He is not at his best.
(It is possible that on hearing Marcus was no longer bound to a sick bed, that he'd some thought to sleep and a bath and a shave—a sort of theater where being in some sense presentable makes up for a number of sins; an impulse long made habitual by years pretending that a uniform and polished boots offsets the stink of being aship for months on end.)
"Your griffon did most of the work," he says, adjusting the mirror. If there is a flash of Marcus the reflection, then it's brief before Flint leans in to do the finicky work of tidying various edges. "But it was"—what?—"a relief to find you in one piece."
A glance cast back through the mirror's reflection. A slanting of the brow which says, More or less.
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But he doesn't think about it. Instead, he watches what he can see of rinsing, of scraping the razor clean, the sound of metal against ceramic, sharp edges against skin, and the aroma of soap, and finds that he likes it.
Does catch that glance in the mirror, the corner of his mouth turning up.
"Aye, well," Marcus says, knowing something like the emotional equivalent of claws retracting from that glance alone. Their having extended to begin with less out of a prey drive and more out of the desire to give something a good and proper kneading. He adds, "My wardrobe begs to differ."
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Captain Rowntree may not be the Gallows' most ostentatious clothes horse, but that hardly disqualifies him from the race in general.
The razor sniks closed into its case. A perfunctory rinsing away of soap, a drying of cheeks, and a squinting examination of the results follows. Some woody beard oil follows, a surreptitious scratching of fingernails against irritated cheeks. Fine, seems to be the assessment. In this light, at least.
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He drinks as Flint finishes, down to half a sip left once an assessment has been made. A stiff helping of rum does its work quickly after a few days of picky eating and idleness, a pleasant warmth beneath the skin. Marcus tosses back the rest and then stands, moving that short distance where he'd set the bottle down.
"Here," he says as he pours a helping. If he'd had any foresight beyond impulse, he might have ferreted out a bottle of something from somewhere on his way up the stairs. Next time, perhaps. For now, he can offer the man his own liquor. "Have a drink with me."
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A low murmur of thanks for the cup instead of some sharper, funnier thing. This doesn't count if you're trying for a do over for a shit night at a tap house, he could say and doesn't.
He knows what the rum tastes like. There is no need to sip carefully at it.
"How are you feeling?" is a better thing to say anyway.
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"Better," he says, reinstating eye contact. "Good," is his revision, a tipping down of his chin meant to impress upon the other man the truth of this. He is better, good. Alive, and present. Nothing that need recall any past pain, nothing that requires distance. "Sober," is then added, punctuated with a tip of the bottle to top up Flint's last sip of rum. He shifts aside to set the bottle down without again stoppering it.
Ready to accept back the cup. Maybe there is something to this in the spirit of a do over, or maybe some quiet and semi-serious celebration in a shared drink, but he hadn't really had much of a plan for what happens after Flint opens his door to him. And so Marcus adds, "Foolish.
"You?"
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The huff of an exhale across the lip of the cup is rum warm and related to a laugh. Pleased with the unexpectedly candid quality of the thing. So in exchange, he trades Marcus the cup and offers, "Tired," with it.
It has a confessional quality, a glint of amusement snagged in at the margins. He's not meant to say that part out loud, it suggests. It would be bad for morale.
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It's a sympathetic hum of sound, shaped by the interior of the cup as Marcus draws another deep sip of cheap rum. Some abstract thrum of guilt passes through him, as if maybe he'd have been able to alleviate enough of the work that Flint would have a different answer, if only he'd been ———, but it comes and it goes, dismissed.
'Foolish', he'd said, and what's the use of feeling that way without acting on it? He reaches out and collects Flint's hand, palm against palm and fingers resting on the inner of his wrist. Coaxing, encouraging Flint nearer rather than stepping into his space.
"I want to stay anyway," Marcus tells him.
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The hand that follows and finds its way to Marcus' shoulder is warm too, thumb encroaching up past the line of his collar to set at the underside of his jaw before the whole hand moves after it.
If he is stepping close, then his hand is moving to the back of Marcus' neck. He is drawing him closer, as if expanding to fit the space, and kissing him—not particularly sweetly, but gentle and unhurried over the warm gusting of a shared breath and the prickling of cheap dark liquor on Marcus' mouth. A less urgent version of the thing he'd pressed to Marcus' lips while they'd tasted of coppery blood. That's fine, it says. Stay then.
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which Marcus can feel better, now, in contrast to that other night where the probing of fingers or blunt warmth of palm that had felt like it was touching him a little through layers of wool. No, he can feel calluses and smooth skin, the discreet points of contact of individual fingers, the gentle pressure that encourages him in up at the back of his neck.
Marcus draws an arm around Flint in a slow squeeze of an embrace, as if relishing something. The pewter cup stays clasped between fingers, neglected. Kisses back, eager to initiate that secondary press of contact.
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Tonight, he does. For all the grit under his fingernails and the imperfect shave, it's good that Marcus is here in this room with the strength in his arm to draw him in. It is less like an indulgence, and hews closer to some kind of legitimate gratitude. Soothes over the thing in Flint most prone to balking. Apparently, he's going to be upset if Marcus Rowntree dies in some fiery standoff with Venatori. If that's true, then it seems stupid to pretend it won't just for the sake of pretending.
It's a slow, warm kiss in that narrowed space. Methodical, like checking that all the pins and buckles of a thing have been done up. A soft parting of lips, a gentle probing of tongue. No teeth at all and the heavy press of fingers cuffed at the nape of Marcus' neck. And when it breaks, as kisses are wont to do, it's with a low huff of breath. A grumbled rum tinged, "Ouch," that is at least partially overplayed as he twists his wrist to loosen the grip Marcus has on it. But he doesn't shift back from under the rasping of Marcus' coat sleeve, and the shape of Flint's other hand remains settled.
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Still gentle, still slow and warm. An enjoyment in the physical act of it as much as it conveys something. Tasting, feeling, the recent trace of alcohol and the texture bristle still damp and smoothed over from the towel. The last of that kiss brushes against the man's lip, which comes with it that first touch of teeth, a brief nip before the kiss breaks.
But doesn't stray far. Marcus' mouth brushes low on Flint's jaw and then the internal structures of the exchange collapse just a little, just enough for his chin to find a resting place on the other man's shoulder and the arm looped around him to anchor firmly, holding him there and against him.
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The sound of his own breathing seems loud in the close knit of this, rasping thick in the narrow space. He lingers there anyway for a few moments in that tight loop of the man's arm; and when he does draw back, it barely qualifies—the line of his body pressed flush, and only Flint's shoulders shifting so he might insinuate enough space into the equation in which to actually meet Marcus' eye.
"Sleep here," has a steady, expectant quality. Not really a question. Barely a request.
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He nods. The affirmative sound, more breath than words, is lost a little in the kiss he brush across Flint's mouth. A reason to stay there a moment longer, pressed in tightly, pairs of boots in close order together on floorboards too sturdy to creak beneath the shifts of weight of two rather than one.
It also makes for a compelling reason to disentangle, once that last kiss breaks.
Barely. But Marcus steps back, disengaging in parts—the leaning into, then his arm sliding back, then finally the hand at Flint's elbow—before lifting the cup to polish off the rum inside. His other hand travels to the edge of his coat to rid himself of less comfortable layers.
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There is a brief impulse when they come fully apart to reverse trajectory and insinuate a hand somewhere close on Marcus' person. Instead, he takes the emptied cup from him and draws back, pulse thick and heavy in his throat.
There is an order to this: the setting aside of the cup, stripping out of the boots he'd removed once already this evening, packing away the things left near the basin with the kind of thoughtless tidiness that speaks of long habit impressed by necessity. There is a cover for the brazier. Fitting it throws the room into the shadow of lamplight.
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The room is thrown into dimmer light and shadow once Marcus is standing again, tugging loose the tails of his shirt from his waistband. His skin prickles over, newly alcohol-warm when the air is pleasantly cool, gathering the fabric and tugging it up over his head, his shoulders. Just like the rest of him, healing magic and recovery has done its work—no new scars to boast, this time.
The shirt is tossed lightly over where his coat was put aside. Loosens his belt to start that too, though a sideways glance marks Flint's progress.
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